AnonymousDeleted UserOctober 16, 2020 at 6:32 am
Contemplative prayer is a gift I found 10 years ago. It felt like the antidote to the formulas of spirituality I had been given. Over the last five years or so, I’ve settled in to a less reactionary embrace of stillness. In my sporadic practice, I have in no way “gotten better” at stilling my mind, but have found an access point to God. Often when I hear people say that, I assume that they have some kind of big “experience” with God in those times of prayer. I’m sure that’s sometimes the case but for me it’s less an “experience” and more a settled knowing. As I continue to learn about contemplative prayer, as well as other meditation practices, the challenge to me is to continue letting go of expectations around outcomes. I think deep down I still want the formulas.