AnonymousDeleted UserOctober 5, 2020 at 6:21 pm
Out of all of the spiritual disciplines, I have to admit that I struggle the most with prayer; especially contemplative prayer. The combination of my background in both Catholic and Evangelical spirituality along with having been raised by an emotionally abusive mother and then married to an emotionally abusive woman has led me to a place where it becomes difficult to silence the self-imposed criticism in times of stillness. For much of my life, it played out well — after all, idle hands and all that. As a Japanese-American, the idea of working hard to avoid failure also translates into those inner voices, because being still meant not doing the work that is always there, waiting to be done.
How does one find stillness and space from those voices? That’s the challenge that is in front of me at this point.